“两张”的生日

今天终于迎来我人生中二十岁的生日，真是兴奋又伤心。。。
兴奋的是，我终于长大了（虽然只有外表）。。。
伤心的是，又老了一岁（唉）。。。


今天还真是有点感动，因为有朋友一大清早就sms来祝贺我，真是谢谢她没忘记我的生日，也因为她，让我忘了生日的寂寞感，真的非常感谢你啊，ah leng~~~


最近，看了几本很有意识的小说（虽然也不算很多），发现里面的主角（虽然像配角）的人生很像我现在的人生，也就是：
1. 常被忽略
2. 常被遗忘
3. 长得平凡
4. 倒霉


唉，真是悲哀呀~~~~


但生日还是要过的阿，所以我今年的生日愿望是：
1. 在STPM成绩放榜时，能够榜上有名
2. 头发不要再掉了
3. 父母健健康康的，过得开兴，不要吵架

迷茫的前途

一次又一次的失败，

一次又一次的失落，

一次又一次的打击，

一次又一次的悲伤，

一次又一次的伤痛，

到底何时才能停止。。。

常对自己说努力过了，就算了吧。。

那是骗人的。。。

自己心情，怎样都摆脱不那份失落，

当然，可能，也许，

会有一天会忘了它，

但那会是何时呢？

在朋友面前可能会暂时性地把它忘掉，

但然后呢？

到头来也会一个人默默的想回它，

就算不想它，

它也会自己漂浮在脑海中，

这简直就是个恶梦！

怎么了？

我到底是怎么了？

明明它是我最有把握的一科，

为什么偏偏就不让我得逞？

明明‘A'就在我面前，

为什么明明会做，

还错误百出。。。。

不行，不行，不行！！

淑沁，

希望还是有的，

到死都不能放弃，

那科可是你的梦想啊，

你的未来，

你的前途，

你的工作，

你的饭碗，

都靠它了！

加油！加油！加油！！

你行的！！！！！！！

老天，您不是那样见死不救吧？

Is Coming~~~~~~

Still have 3 days more, STPM. It finally came, I feel like nervous and excited since it is a biggest challenge in my school life. So now, what can do is pray hard and study hard to achieve my target. Gambateh!!!!! You can do it!!!!

Sorrow

A small little girl hit by two car, should we lend a hand to help her? This question has draw an attention of the world to the community of China nowadays. China, is a advanced country. But the humanity that consist in China can be described as ''Sakai''. It is a very sad story. How come they can act like that as they are ''consider'' as a human. Maybe the animal are more even better than the community of China nowadays.Through the poisoning food, toys, and etc, we can see the true humanity of the China nowadays. Haiz, sad for the little girl and the depravity of humanity of China. Cruel and hate China's people!!!!!!

Comic and I

I facing a big big problem recently which is I addicted in my lovely comic again. It made me very headache because I cant get concentration in  my study. Arhhhhh~~~~! But it is not my comic's fault because its cool and interesting story line had made me walk inside it's world.hehe~~~The comic's name is 'Reborn Hitman'. The main character of this comic is a very handsome guy. You will get interested with him too after seeing his picture. hahahhaha~~~

Lost

I feel like I lost in my world. It is lonely, cool, helpless and darkness. I want go out....I not suppose to be here. I suppose be in a happy and no stress's world. But I am not. Every time I laugh with my friend, I feel like empty. How can I have a feeling like that? How come? It is not my real characteristic. I dont want this lonely world.I   now just like a lonely and helpless child. I want go out....help....someone....anyone.....who can lend me a hand?Unfortunately, no one can hear and understand it. It is just helpless......

countdown STPM

STPM is just around the corner now, still got 59 days to go. The trial had passed for one and a half week. Most of the teacher had finished marked now and start giving back. Haiz~very sad to say, my result is still not the result that i aim to, especially Mikroeconomy and business. I felt very fluctuated.
''Am i really can get my target in the real STPM?'' this question always appear in my mind. I really need it (the target), it is important for me to protect my dignity. My cousin who study together with me had get the result which is closed to the A. Sometime i'm really envy on her. Envy on her powered mind to memories all the thing and also lucky. Maybe is my fault that made my result like that. All the fault is because of lazy. The different between she and me are the heart to study and the mind to concentrate. This is the judgement to me and i need to face it.
Short to say, pray more God and study much~work hard to get the targets!!!
I believe I can do it!See then!!