迷茫的前途

一次又一次的失败，

一次又一次的失落，

一次又一次的打击，

一次又一次的悲伤，

一次又一次的伤痛，

到底何时才能停止。。。

常对自己说努力过了，就算了吧。。

那是骗人的。。。

自己心情，怎样都摆脱不那份失落，

当然，可能，也许，

会有一天会忘了它，

但那会是何时呢？

在朋友面前可能会暂时性地把它忘掉，

但然后呢？

到头来也会一个人默默的想回它，

就算不想它，

它也会自己漂浮在脑海中，

这简直就是个恶梦！

怎么了？

我到底是怎么了？

明明它是我最有把握的一科，

为什么偏偏就不让我得逞？

明明‘A'就在我面前，

为什么明明会做，

还错误百出。。。。

不行，不行，不行！！

淑沁，

希望还是有的，

到死都不能放弃，

那科可是你的梦想啊，

你的未来，

你的前途，

你的工作，

你的饭碗，

都靠它了！

加油！加油！加油！！

你行的！！！！！！！

老天，您不是那样见死不救吧？

Is Coming~~~~~~

Still have 3 days more, STPM. It finally came, I feel like nervous and excited since it is a biggest challenge in my school life. So now, what can do is pray hard and study hard to achieve my target. Gambateh!!!!! You can do it!!!!

Sorrow

A small little girl hit by two car, should we lend a hand to help her? This question has draw an attention of the world to the community of China nowadays. China, is a advanced country. But the humanity that consist in China can be described as ''Sakai''. It is a very sad story. How come they can act like that as they are ''consider'' as a human. Maybe the animal are more even better than the community of China nowadays.Through the poisoning food, toys, and etc, we can see the true humanity of the China nowadays. Haiz, sad for the little girl and the depravity of humanity of China. Cruel and hate China's people!!!!!!

Comic and I

I facing a big big problem recently which is I addicted in my lovely comic again. It made me very headache because I cant get concentration in  my study. Arhhhhh~~~~! But it is not my comic's fault because its cool and interesting story line had made me walk inside it's world.hehe~~~The comic's name is 'Reborn Hitman'. The main character of this comic is a very handsome guy. You will get interested with him too after seeing his picture. hahahhaha~~~

Lost

I feel like I lost in my world. It is lonely, cool, helpless and darkness. I want go out....I not suppose to be here. I suppose be in a happy and no stress's world. But I am not. Every time I laugh with my friend, I feel like empty. How can I have a feeling like that? How come? It is not my real characteristic. I dont want this lonely world.I   now just like a lonely and helpless child. I want go out....help....someone....anyone.....who can lend me a hand?Unfortunately, no one can hear and understand it. It is just helpless......

countdown STPM

STPM is just around the corner now, still got 59 days to go. The trial had passed for one and a half week. Most of the teacher had finished marked now and start giving back. Haiz~very sad to say, my result is still not the result that i aim to, especially Mikroeconomy and business. I felt very fluctuated.
''Am i really can get my target in the real STPM?'' this question always appear in my mind. I really need it (the target), it is important for me to protect my dignity. My cousin who study together with me had get the result which is closed to the A. Sometime i'm really envy on her. Envy on her powered mind to memories all the thing and also lucky. Maybe is my fault that made my result like that. All the fault is because of lazy. The different between she and me are the heart to study and the mind to concentrate. This is the judgement to me and i need to face it.
Short to say, pray more God and study much~work hard to get the targets!!!
I believe I can do it!See then!!

Brutal people- WUA 6919,black, Toyota Vios's stupid owners

Today is my most angry day in my early life. I had met two stupid brutal people that i feel like want to punch them! The situation is like this....

Today i went to Jingjang market in the morning with my mom and my sister. I drove the car today and i went to the parking lot to find a car park to place my car. Due to reason that today is Sunday so there was many people went to market there to buy things and of course hard to find a parking lot. So, we have to wait people who wan to left the place. wait lo....wait lo....wait lo....

We had wait for about 8 minutes, then finally there was a woman who want to get her car to left. Fortunately, her car was just beside our car. Then we thought that we finally get a parking place and can go out of the car then can enjoy our breakfast. But, Im wrong. There was a new comer car had just wait for a few second at the back!When i try to reverse back my car, the man just hon me!!!!!!!! What the hell!! According to rule, we should be the one who can first park the place since we are waited longer. So, my mom go out and discussed with them lo. But the stupid brutal 40 age above couple claimed that they had followed the woman to take her car and they scored my mom back said that we ''snatch'' their parking place!!
What a stupid reason! the road at the car park there is very zai and sempit, how they followed her? CRAZY!
Then no choice i ask my mom to go back to the car and wait another parking lo. Then u guess what happened next? The brutal man take out his handphone and take the picture of my car number!!!!!!
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~
At the moment, i really angry and feel want to go down and punch at him!!!!!
What kind of people like him o? 'Snatch' people's car park and made the situation that we are the wrong one!!!!!! What the hell!!!!!Eeeeeeeeee~~~~~Damn shit!
So, if u all see this car: Toyota Vios, black colour and the number WUA 6919 please help me 割划 his car if u can(just a joke, but wish to) or at least curse them!!!!!!!!!!
Maybe u will think that im bad, but if u really faces this situation, u have no choice, u cannot do anything to them. Cant u kill them also~Just on this wall release my stress only....please stand at my side when u read it! haha

Hair cut

Today i had cut my hair at one of the salon at Mutiara. Actually i had gone by tomorrow because i had to wait my sister until 4p.m. But yesterday the man that i want to help me cut my hair absent. This is the first time the i order people to help me cut my hair. haha~ Of course im scared to ask the worker there. So you know yesterday what am i said to the worker? I said, '' i heard from my friend that got one guy called Ken in your salon that very well in cutting hair...'' It is normal to heard people said like that because we really need his well hand and service. But, the question is the people who cut my hair before was sit beside the worker that i asked question. It heard funny when i realised after that. haha~However, it is good because the man is not really good at cutting and wasted money that time. Hope that he knows that he is not good enough and need to improve himself!

Talk back to my hair. Now my hair had become shorter and thinner. And my big face looked bigger...==
But i like it because i have no choice to choose. My face~~haiz~~eventhough i hate it but speechless....><

Pessimist

I admit that I am a pessimist. I always feel useless in doing thing and scared that people will comment on those thing which i had done. Very funny thing is when somebody comment bad thing on me and i will hate him/her and not talking to he/she for a period. This is my bad personality.hehe~~


Remember one time, my account teacher was talking to my friend about R&D report. When they were discussing and thinking on how to solve a problem that they faced in the report, i appeared in front of them (because i am one of the member). Then, of course, I had to give out my idea to help them solve the problem but my idea was out...and teacher had said one sentences that i wouldnt forget it in my whole life....'' You thought you are so clever to solve the problem'' ! At that movement, i was blank....
I hate myself in that time. Why i am so stupid to give out the idea on that time? But i am one of the member, and i  just try to help. Maybe is my fault to give out the idea with no permission of her. Now, i am scared to give out my idea again especially in all the class... haiz~><


''Is it my punishment to have a haughty face?'' I always ask the God. 
When i am quiet, i looked like i'm angry and conceited ;
When i am noisy, i looked like crazy.
Then what should i do? Become quiet or noisy?
Remember last saturday, a friend told me that i looked conceited when quiet. Even the teacher himself, I can feel that he sees me with different eye sight. 
I swear that i am not that kind of person. This kind of person is not suitable for my personality. The personality that appear inside of me is cheer and happy even sometime i am stressing with problem. And i admit that i am a good laughing person. Even one small funny point i also will laugh until stomach pain.
So, gambateh~I will try to make my face expression change to normal face!
and i would like to announce to anybody that 
'' I AM NOT HAUGHTY! I SWEAR! and dont look at me with the expression again! ''

Weird

haha and yo~~~ today is my first time writing blog.
It is weird because people like me also will create a blog.haha.
Unbelievable and awesome!!!
It means everything of the world can change even man's personality like me, haha~~
So as a human, we must always updated ourself to make that we are not left behind.....