Pessimist

I admit that I am a pessimist. I always feel useless in doing thing and scared that people will comment on those thing which i had done. Very funny thing is when somebody comment bad thing on me and i will hate him/her and not talking to he/she for a period. This is my bad personality.hehe~~


Remember one time, my account teacher was talking to my friend about R&D report. When they were discussing and thinking on how to solve a problem that they faced in the report, i appeared in front of them (because i am one of the member). Then, of course, I had to give out my idea to help them solve the problem but my idea was out...and teacher had said one sentences that i wouldnt forget it in my whole life....'' You thought you are so clever to solve the problem'' ! At that movement, i was blank....
I hate myself in that time. Why i am so stupid to give out the idea on that time? But i am one of the member, and i  just try to help. Maybe is my fault to give out the idea with no permission of her. Now, i am scared to give out my idea again especially in all the class... haiz~><


''Is it my punishment to have a haughty face?'' I always ask the God. 
When i am quiet, i looked like i'm angry and conceited ;
When i am noisy, i looked like crazy.
Then what should i do? Become quiet or noisy?
Remember last saturday, a friend told me that i looked conceited when quiet. Even the teacher himself, I can feel that he sees me with different eye sight. 
I swear that i am not that kind of person. This kind of person is not suitable for my personality. The personality that appear inside of me is cheer and happy even sometime i am stressing with problem. And i admit that i am a good laughing person. Even one small funny point i also will laugh until stomach pain.
So, gambateh~I will try to make my face expression change to normal face!
and i would like to announce to anybody that 
'' I AM NOT HAUGHTY! I SWEAR! and dont look at me with the expression again! ''